I get to spend the Holidays with my moms family WOOPDIE FREAKING DOO!!! I my lose my sanity any moment. My Papa hasn't figured out that most of his grandchildren are over the age of three (i swear to God he woke me and my TWELVE year old sister up on Christmas morning dressed as a reigndeer) The fighting and bickering never stops! I walked upstairs one morning and my Papa asked me what i wanted for breakfast, i said cereal. Then a few minutes later my grandma asked me the same question, I answered it cuz i didn't think it was that big a deal. My Papa yelled at her for not paying attention and this huge fight started. By the time it was over i was done getting ready (i'm a girl, which means it takes a long time for me to get ready) Ya, that's what i've had to deal with for the past week! My cousins aren't that great either: one thinks she owns the world and her parents refuse to break her of this dream, one whines about everything, one's 16 and pregnant, one ran away from home cuz she couldn't take it anymore (i sympathize with her), and I barely get to see my only sane cousins. I dyed my hair purple and it's fadeing, so now i'm gonna dye it red. I also got it cut so now i look super emo. I cry a lot now cuz i miss my dad, my step mom, my boyfriend, my dog, my cat, and my sanity. I'm constantly being made fun of here and the only way to get back at them is to point out how much I hate being here, that shuts 'em up. They think i'm too tomboyish and should be girly, i got a purse for Christmas. It seems like they'd realize that i don't care if they don't like me acting like a boy. I put on a ton of make up just to annoy them, they tell my not to cut every time i see them (as if i cut) If i don't get to talk to my boyfriend soon i may have a psychological melt down. I'm eat too much and now i feel fat, that's not good for wrestling. I've worked out a little bit but it's not helping. It still hasn't registered in my grandparents minds that butter is not something a wrestler can eat, and then they try to guilt trip me by saying i won't eat their fried foods. I want to scream "i'm bi" in the middle of one of my homophobic family's get togethers. My grandmas stared crying about someone stealing her meds to get high (who could blame them in this family?) The dog is really fat and my grandparents still feed it table scraps saying it won't harm him OH MY GOD THEY ARE TRYING TO KILL THE DOG! When i treat the dog the way a dog should be treated (i don't give into begging and i pet him when he decides to stop and find something better to do) i get yelled at for thinking the dog's fat. The dog is fat, if you can't feel a dogs ribs it's fat. I'm breaking out in a ton of zits. I don't feel physically or mentally healthy. My sister isn't getting enough attention and i feel bad about it. I'm trying to be ignored and it only works when i desperately need attention. I'm loseing sleep and i have a cold. Every part of my body hurts. My Christmas sucked cuz my "i own the world" cousin got tons of things and all i got was a coffee mug, a purse, a scarf, and some PJs. My sister and i decided to get each other some thing special for each other with our Christmas money so i bought her lip gloss and she got me scented lotion (it's my fav present cuz some one who cared to spend enough time thinking about what to get got it for me) My sister was really happy with the lip gloss cuz she really wanted some for Christmas and no one gives a shit to even consider spending only seven dollars on a good lip gloss the she'll like. My sister is all i have right now and i'm thankful for that. My mom got us a toothbrush for Christmas, i'm not kidding. I don't exactly feel the Christmas spirit and i want to spend my next Christmas with my dad, even if it means skipping out on an other HAPPY FUCKING CHRISTMAS AT GRANDMA AND PAPAS. If you read this far then pat your self on the back, you have a very long attention span. >!!!!!!!!!!!!NOW THAT IS WHAT I CALL VENTING OBSESSION!!!!!!!!!!!!<